Episode 62

My Kid’s Being Rude and Office Furniture Fu*kery

Published on: 1st July, 2026

My oldest turns 10 this week, which is rude and kind of bullshit, and I will accept no part of it. She did not ask my permission.

Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. Some people call me L2. You can too if you want. This is my podcast "Different, Not Broken" which is about exactly that.

In this episode, I take you back to exactly 10 years ago — the Thursday night when a weird feeling turned into a labor story I was absolutely not ready for, including the shower incident. (You’ll know when you get there.)

Then we get into what I’m calling Furniture Fuckery: the story of why my home office carpet smelled like funky ass dog for a decade, how it took me 10 years to buy a desk I first saw when we bought this house, and how Manny — a furniture store salesperson on his very first day — accidentally became the emotional highlight of my weekend.

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There was picking the carpet, which to me, it was like,

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here's a swatch of carpet. Do you like it? Yes. Get that one. That is

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not how my husband's brain works. You cannot

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judge your success by anybody else's. And anybody

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who wants to judge yours by theirs

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can get bent and get

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bent hard. I said to my husband, I'm gonna buy a new desk. And he

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was like, I'm not letting you put a new desk in that office until that

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carpet's out of there. And I was like, I'm not letting you put a new

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desk in this office until that carpet's out of. Don't tell me what to do.

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He was kind of right. It did smell like funky ass dog in here.

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Boop. Hi, everybody. I'm Lauren Howard.

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Welcome to Different Not Broken, which is our

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podcast on exactly that. That there are a lot of people in this world walking

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around feeling broken, and the reality is you're just different, and that's fine.

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You should know that I am officially the mother of a

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10 year old, which is rude

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and kind of bullshit because nobody told her that she was

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allowed to do that. I certainly did not. She did not ask my

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permission. People keep telling me that I need to stop feeding her if I

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want her to stop growing, but they whine a lot when you don't feed them.

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They, like, constantly ask for food, and so

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that's not an option. She's also in the middle of a growth spurt, and she's

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eating 10 times what I do. It's

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a little scary to watch in that it's also fascinating and

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amazing to watch. So 10 years ago, yesterday

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night, I was finally getting around

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and by finally, three days after the fact, getting around to unpacking

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all of the swag from our baby shower, which my mom

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had booked or scheduled for when I was 34 weeks

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pregnant. And me being pregnant for the first time

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and not understanding how things work

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said, I don't know, that seems really early. She was like, no, I don't think

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it's early. And I was like, I don't know, it feels pretty early. And she

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was like, I don't think it's early. I was like, okay. And so

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we had a lovely baby shower on a Saturday.

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And the following Thursday, I was

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organizing things and doing the very,

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very beginnings of what I believe now was nesting that I

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didn't get to do much of, and touching all the

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things and looking at all the tiny clothes and going to pee every

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45 seconds because she was, like, elbowing my bladder

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Constantly. And feeling like

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you're at the point where you're like, this is enough. I don't need to do

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this any longer. She's probably fine, right? And no, don't do

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that. You should not have a baby at 34 weeks. But that was how I

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felt at the time. I can't say this too much because I was only ever

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pregnant for seven months. But you do get to seven months and you're like, this

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is enough time. Isn't she cooked? And so

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I had been feeling weird all day. And again,

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never been pregnant before. Don't know what versions of weird I should be looking out

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for. And me feeling weird just makes it a Thursday.

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Had been with my dad all day. My dad was pretty sick at the time

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and just had these weird feelings, this weird feeling of

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pressure. Constantly unloaded all the stuff. Looked at him, went, wow, we have

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such lovely friends and family. I can't wait for six weeks from now when we

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get to use all this stuff.

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And said to my husband, you know what? I'm gonna go lay down because I'm

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white. I feel weird. Everything's weird. I'm wiped.

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I'm going to go lay down. And went and laid down. Fell asleep pretty quickly.

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Woke up at like 2 o' clock in the morning because I had to go

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to the bathroom really bad. Went to the bathroom

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and felt this discernible pop

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and went, oh, shit. Called for. My

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husband said, I think my water just broke.

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To which he said, what? No, it didn't. And I was like, I don't know

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that it didn't, but I also don't know that it did. I don't know.

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I just. I think my water just broke. And I think I need to go

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to the hospital. To which he said, okay, give me five minutes to shower.

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And got in the shower while I was standing there with my water

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broken, I think. I didn't know. I didn't know. We didn't know

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what was happening. I had never been pregnant before. This was all brand new. He

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did take a shower. And I tried to drive myself to the hospital because I

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was so fucking mad at him. I was so mad at him that he

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decided that was the time to take a shower. He was like, what was I

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supposed to do? I can't go there dirty. You can't go What? What?

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You can't what? So I tried to drive myself. I could not. I called

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him from my car and said, you need to get out here right now because

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I can't drive. It hurts too much. And he was like, I was coming the

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whole time. And I was like, none of you were in the fucking shower

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anyway. Get to the hospital. They were like,

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oh, well, July 1st is a fun day to have a baby. And I was

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like, nope, this is six. We're supposed to be six weeks from now. We're not

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doing this. And they were like, no, this baby's coming. And I was like, no,

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it's not. You're so silly. No, it's not. And they were like, yes, this baby's

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coming. And I was like, no. I said no. 12 hours later,

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after 12 hours of labor but 23 minutes of active

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pushing, they handed me a baby. And like her mother, she didn't like to

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wait. And she was born six weeks early, but exactly on time.

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And she has become the funniest, silliest, smartest,

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tallest. This child came up to me and put her head on my shoulder last

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week. No. Hard no. Not allowed.

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She's so quick witted. She's got a better pun game than any adult

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I have ever met by a margin of a lot. She blows me away with

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the things that her brain is able to keep up with. She really likes Settlers

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of Catan. She's a big fan of Catan. She

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loves Lord of the Rings. Loves Lord of the Rings. Just

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raising a proper nerd and it feels good. She

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is the light of my life, except for her sister, who is also another light

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of my life. But it's a different light. It's a different light. She is

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like a happy, sunshiny, bright light. And

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my second child is like a black light who exposes all of your deep

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flaws and everything gross on the carpet. That

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is their completely opposite vibes. Neither is a complaint. They're both

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perfect. Being a mom is the best thing I've ever done. It's also the hardest

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thing I've ever done. It took us four years to get pregnant. It has taken

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me a really long time to figure out how to be the mom I want

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to be and how to care about the right things

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and how to get out of the what should be

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happening and what's supposed to happen and look at what

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actually is happening and what is right for our family and our kids. And that

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has been a long time struggle. But man, these

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kids make me laugh every day. They make me

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better every day. They make me more compassionate every day.

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They test my limits every day. They both have

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identified limits I didn't know I had and also showed me the

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unending lengths I will go to. And

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I can actually say that I have been

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responsible for the health and welfare of another human for 10

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years and I have not irreparably fucked it up yet.

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That's something to be proud of. So happy birthday to my

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oldest baby who has somehow been around for a decade,

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which cannot be possible because she is just an

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itty bitty tiny widow baby who fits in my

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pocket and came into this world

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six weeks early at 5 pounds 11 ounces and

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19 inches long, which is almost a normal birth weight

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and as long as most full term babies.

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And she has stayed that tall ever since.

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And I want to reinforce that is rude.

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I did get a fancy new desk. It's all shiny and

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lacquer y and looks all professional and

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stuff. And I rearranged my office with my new desk.

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We've had builder grade carpet in this room since we bought the

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house. We just took their cheap carpet and we planned to replace it at some

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point. And at some point apparently was 10 years later. In

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the process of those 10 years we have had a number of

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puppies including more than one househorse.

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And the fact that the carpet had any structural

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integrity left that it hadn't become just dust that we were all

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breathing in is actually pretty impressive. And a lot to say about builder grade

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carpet because this stuff was here for a long time and had been through a

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thing or two. The number of times that it got steam

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cleaned in a short period of time due to

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a puppy. Because I don't care what kind of flooring is in my office. My

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dogs are coming in my office. I don't want to have an office

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if my dogs aren't allowed it. I have this office so I

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can give my dogs a better life. I've thought about getting a new desk for

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a while and then my setup in my office has been

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imperfect for quite a while for a lot of reasons. But I will just like

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make do with things for so fricking long. For so long. I

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will use a broken ass desk for years. And I did one of the

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desks that I used up until I got basically a makeshift standing

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desk that I used for a couple years. Literally had a hole in the side

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cause two of our dogs got in a flight fight and knocked

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my kids art easel into it and it

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knocked a hole into the side because very clearly it was

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super expensive hardwood, also known as

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reinforced cardboard from Ikea. But it had a hole in

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the side and at one point I was like I should just get some contact

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paper and put it down the side of it so it looks like it's Like

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a fancy design. My husband's like, you're not putting contact

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paper on the desk to cover the fact that it has a hole in it.

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You can get a new desk. And I was like, I don't think I need

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to. It's probably fine. It's fine. I've been making do with

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stuff for a very long time. But for a number of reasons, we got to

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a point where it was like, maybe I should actually, like, make my office look

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pretty because I have my stupid face on camera

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a lot and we should have a cool background behind us or something. I

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said to my husband, I'm going to buy a new desk. And he was like,

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I'm not letting you put a new desk in that office until that carpet is

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out of there. And I was like, I'm not letting you put a new desk

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in this office until that carpet's out. Don't tell me what to do. But

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he was kind of right. It did smell like funky ass dog in here.

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And like many iterations of Funky ass Dog. Getting the carpet

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situated was a long process. There was, like, agreeing that we

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were going to do the carpet, then there was figuring out where we were going

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to get the carpet from, and then there was

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picking the carpet when. Which to me it was like, here's a swatch of carpet.

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Do you like it? Yes. Get that one. That is not how my husband's brain

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works. My husband has a look at every single sample of

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carpet and snuggle with it and test it with the pad

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underneath it and see what colors it comes in and test

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the colors in different lighting. And what do you think of wood

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floors? And we could do wood floors, but it would take us

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a long time to find somebody who can install the wood floors. Oh, and it

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would go up against the tile floor that looks like wood. And then. And so

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we'd have to probably match it somehow. And I was finally just like, just put

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carpet in. I don't care. Just put carpet in. I don't care. It's not that

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expensive. If dogs pee on it, I will replace it. Just put carpet in.

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So we finally picked the carpet. It was like literally a two month process

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of going to Home Depot and then Lowe's and then Home Depot and then

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Lowe's and then a carpet store and then a different carpet store and then a

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wholesale carpet store and then back to Home Depot and then back to Lowe's. So

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we finally picked the carpet, and in the process, my husband decided, well, if we're

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going to do carpet in your office, we might as well, do all the areas

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that need carpet, because all of the builder carpet in our house needs to go.

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So he decides he's going to do the carpet in the kids rooms and then

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the carpet on the stairs, which, if given my dressers, I would get rid of

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the carpet altogether. But the cost difference and the skill difference

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in installing carpet versus tile

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or wood is like, night and day. And I also just didn't want to spend

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that much money. So we're trying to figure it out, and he's going

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back and forth trying to figure out what carpet to put upstairs, what carpet to

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put on the stairs, and he's getting quotes, and he's like,

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I think it's going to be this much to do your office. And I was

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like, well, it's more than I wanted to spend, but okay. He's like, and it's

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going to be this much to do the girls rooms, and it's going to be

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this much to do the stairs. And I was like, yeah, okay, all right.

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It's like, I don't think I realized that we were turning it into a project

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of that level, but if that's what we need to do, okay, that's what we

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need to do. And then he was like, well, if you don't want to spend

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that much money, we can try to figure out how to do it a different

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way. And I'm like, well, yeah, let me know what other ways there are. And

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he comes back and he's like, all right, so if we just do the girls

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room and the stairs. And I was like, what? No,

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that is not. You just removed the whole point

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of why we were doing the carpet. And he's like, but the girls room and

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stairs need to be done. And I'm like, but they did need to be done

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last week. So he's like, I'll put your office back on. I'm like,

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yes. I just think he, like, got so, like, mentally

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invested in the cost and the getting the project done that he,

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like, forgot the big goal, which is, I'm still going to harass you about the

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desk. We don't wake up one morning and go, like, no, new desk. That's not

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how my hyper fixations work, bro. That's not? No. So

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anyway, so we finally get the carpet in, and I'm

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looking everywhere for a desk. And again, I'm the person that he would, like, bring

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50 swatches to. I'd be like, which carpet do you want? And I'd be like,

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they're all great. I don't care. They're lovely. Get all of them. They're

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perfect. But then when it came to buying a desk, the way

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that I looked at every desk on the planet, the way

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that I hated something about every single desk, I saw the way that I went

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back and forth between standing desk, regular desk,

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giant desk, smaller desk, bigger l desk. Does

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it need drawers? Should it not? There are lots of places in this

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world that sell desks, and you would think

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that there are none, the way I was acting about picking this desk.

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And he would say, did you buy a desk yet? And I would say, no.

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And he'd say, why not? I'd say, because I can't find one that I like.

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He'd be like, there are literally websites that have tens of thousands of desks

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on them. And I was like, yeah, but no good ones. The things that I

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am particular about, desks and bedsheets, other than that, I could not give

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shit desks, bed sheets, and fountain Coke. Other than

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that, like, I have zero preferences about anything. You want to buy

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a new house? Sure, go do it. You want to buy cheap sheets from

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Walmart? Gross. Don't do that. That's awful. Bad idea. So finally I stumbled

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back on to this desk that I had literally looked at 10 years

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ago. There's this Italian designer who

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makes executive desks that are

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very fancy looking but not like insanely

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expensive. And I kept looking at this one at a furniture store

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online, not that far from us going, I feel like I've seen this

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before. Why do I feel like I've seen this before? And finally I got back

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to the website of the actual manufacturer and I was like, this is the

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set that I looked at when we bought this house. And I

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chickened out and didn't buy it then because it was just too expensive. We bought

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this house 10 years ago. One, my tastes haven't changed much.

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Two, apparently they don't update their inventory very often. Which

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worked out fine for me. Not a complaint. So we went and we saw it

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at a furniture store that's near us. And I still didn't buy it. It was

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like a little bit more expensive than I wanted to spend.

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And they had two of the versions, but not the third version. And

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so my husband keeps going, you need a desk, just buy a desk. And I'm

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like, it's not right. It's not the right desk. It's not right. And he's, those

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are the desks that you wanted the whole time. They're the right desk. I'm like,

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no, something's not right. Nope. Because crazy person, really.

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That's really what it is. And so I'm still looking,

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and finally, I'm like, I think I'm just gonna get one of them.

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But there's, like, a third model. There's two models that

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they've had forever, and then there's a third one, and the third one I had

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never seen in person. And for some reason, it. It occurred

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to me that this furniture store that is really big in South Florida

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had opened up a new showroom up here

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closer to us. It's, like, 45 minutes away from us, and I had never been

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there. And so I went on the website, and they had the desks, and so

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I was like, okay. And so, thankfully, I

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have a ride or die husband who is literally down to ride

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wherever, because I randomly that

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Saturday was like, do you want to drive me over to Altamont and

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I can look at this desk? And he was like, all right, whatever. Let's

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go. He'll go anywhere. He doesn't care. And so we

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drive over there. We took his mom with us because she was also looking for

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a table. And we walk into this showroom

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that, I swear to God, was filled with the

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furniture from the model home that

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we bought of our home. Like, it was the exact same stuff. And Again, this

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was 10 years ago. The reason our house is so well

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decorated now is because we took pictures of

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every corner of the model and bought every scrap of

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furniture we could find. I, to this day, have that

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model home imprinted in my memory. This very nice man walks up to me, and

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he says, I'm Manny. I can help you with anything you need today. And I

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am like, I hate being approached by salespeople when I walk into places. So I

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was like, thanks, Manny. I'm good. I'm just gonna go wander. And of course, like,

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every time you turn around a little bit, he's like, behind you, like a

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ghost you can't get rid of. And so I would go to look at a

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bedroom set and then look in the mirror on the dresser, and in the back

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corner of the mirror, you would see, like, Manny hanging out in the corner. I

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was like, okay, I've got a tail. It's fine. He was unobtrusive.

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He didn't ask anything. He stayed out of my way. But he was definitely following

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me around the store. Like, do you have a question? Can I answer your own

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question? So. So finally, I find the section with the desks, which is, of course,

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the last section. Like, the whole. I've been through the whole store. The

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last corner that I get to, of course, I'm gonna stop in the last place

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that had the stuff I'm looking for. But this was the last possible place in

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the store it could be in. It's the exact opposite of where it started.

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And I see the desk, and I was like, oh, my God, I love it.

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And it was the one I had never seen before. It was. I just. I

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looked at it. It was huge. I like a big desk. It had

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the grommets. It just had all the things I wanted in it. And

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I was like, I also want the credenza. I feel like I am a

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fancy lady who deserves the two

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stack drawers. I should have file cabinet. I'm just. I'm a fancy lady

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of business, and I should have drawers. So

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I said to my husband, I love the desk. I love the credenza. He was

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like, all right, you want to get it? And I was like, I'm not sure.

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Seriously looks me in the face. And he's like, what the fuck?

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And I was like, we just. We have. I could make what I have work.

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I don't need to spend a bunch of money. And he looks at me, and

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he's like, by the fucking desk.

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We drove all the way out here by

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the fucking desk. I was like.

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And meanwhile, there were some things he saw that he liked. A thing that his

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mother. His mom saw that she liked. And

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we're looking at all of it like, oh, okay, we're good at this. Meanwhile, the

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whole time, my children are terrorizing the store. They're sitting on all the

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couches. They're spinning on all the chairs. They're touching all the recliner buttons. And Manny

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is here for all of it. Manny's like, did you try this one? This one

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spins really well. You should try this one. And you could tell he was trying

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to not, like, spin them too hard because he didn't want them to puke in

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the showroom, which is good thinking. Manny, you are a man with children. I can

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tell. But he was just, like, totally tolerant of the fact that my children were

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being my children and were very excited about all of the furniture or sitting

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on all of the furniture. I look at my husband. My husband is

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like, you want the desk? Buy the desk. So I was

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like, fine. So I look at Manny and I say, I'll take

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it. And he goes, you want to buy it? And I

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said, yeah. And I said, I also. And he goes, okay, okay. And he

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gets kind of very fleeting look on his face. But then it went

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away. And then I said, but I also want the credenza to

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you. And he goes, oh, Bo. And I said, yeah. And

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again, very fleeting look. And then it's gone. And he said, okay, let's go back

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to where we put in the order. I can walk you through all that. And

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so I walk behind him, and I just want to point out that I am

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an extremely perceptive person. I have excellent

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perception of the people around me. And I

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definitely noticed, and definitely didn't only realize

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later that as he was walking back with me

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to the place where you put in the order, that

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everybody was patting him on the back and high fiving. I totally noticed

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that. I totally did not just ignore the fact that was happening

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around, except I did. I did. And then I got there and I sat

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down because they have, like, the little desk, and it's got the screen where you

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can see what they're doing. He's standing there, and I'm sitting. And so I kind

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of looked at him like, what are we doing? You gonna do it? And he,

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very sheepishly and adorably, in a way that I will

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never forget, looks at me and says, it's my first day, and I don't know

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how to process a sale yet, so my manager's gonna come do it. And I

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was like, it's your first day? And he goes,

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yeah. I was like, is this your first sale? And he

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goes, yeah. And I was like, I'm gonna buy the whole damn

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store. I went from being unwilling to spend any

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number of dollars to being like, wrap it all up. Bring it to me.

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I got credit cards. Let's go. Swipe, swipe.

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Because I was gonna buy this desk online. They had it online.

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I could have it delivered the same way. But if you buy it online, nobody

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gets a commission on. Just goes to benefit the store. It doesn't go to

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benefit anybody else. And so I would have gotten the same desk.

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It would have been delivered to my house. I. I probably would have bought the

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same thing. But for some reason, that day, after 10 years.

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10 years of looking at this desk, that day we decided to

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go get it. That day, my husband decided to put his foot down and say,

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stop wasting my fucking time and buy a desk. Which is fair.

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And that day happened to be Manny's very first day,

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where he got his very first sale and got

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to take home some money. Maybe not exactly that day. I would imagine that comes

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on a paycheck later, but still for a job that, like, maybe he

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wasn't sure he was any good at and he was good at it, and he

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didn't bother me. He was a little

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unobtrusive lurker rather than being

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all up in my business. And for that reason, we buy furniture.

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So anyway, we have since gone back, and they had really good floor

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models on sale. And we almost sold this house.

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Gosh, I think it was three years ago now. It was when the market was

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super crazy and when you could sell a house in a day.

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And we just decided again. It took me 10 years

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to buy a desk. 10 years. It took me 5 years to buy the nightstands

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that are in my bedroom right now. We had a mattress on a floor

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for the first four years we lived here, because picking

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those things was too hard. But on Easter

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Sunday three years ago, my husband looked at me and was like, do you

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want to sell this house? And I was like, sure. And that was the extent

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of the conversation that we had. And we were under contract. Two weeks later,

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there was no further conversation about it. So the things that we get stuck on

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and the things that we are just, like, all in for,

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very disparate experiences. But the sale

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fell through on. I think it was, like, four days before

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closing. We didn't end up closing, but in the process, we had packed up all

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of our stuff. We had sold a bunch of our furniture. We had given away

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stuff that needed to be given away. And we still, three years later,

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shockingly, are trying to replace some of it. And so while we were there,

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they had a bunch of floor models. And I looked at Manny, and I was

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like, do you get commission on floor models? And he goes,

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yeah. And I was like, bet. And we just walked around, and we're like, we'll

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take that table. We'll take that table. We'll take that table. So we have a

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dining room table again, which we have not had a dining room table for three

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years. And it was super cheap. Not super cheap, but it was inexpensive,

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and it looks fancy. It's not like cheap furniture. And

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there were these end tables that they had at the

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model home that we literally bought and then

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built a replica of when we were building our house. And we

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were never able to find them, which wasn't a huge catastrophe for me,

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because they're glass, and I don't like glass because it's hard to keep clean. But

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my husband really liked them. He really wanted them. And no matter where we looked,

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we couldn't find them. They had them on sale there, and they were $95.

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And when we looked 10 years ago, the closest I think we could find

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were like $1,000 a piece. And I was like, I'm not spending $1,000 a piece

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for a table that we're not going to use. That's not going to happen. But

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$95, I can swing. So we now have the end tables that he

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wasn't able to find for 10 years. And I have the desk

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that I've been looking at for 10 years. And we have a dining room

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table that we got very inexpensively because it was

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the floor model that we didn't know we needed.

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We did know we needed. Cause we didn't have a dining room table, but we

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didn't know we were shopping for. And Manny got a cut of all of it

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on his first day. Look at that.

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Very fancy. So anyway, sometimes you wake up in the

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morning and decide that today's the day. Or your husband decides for you

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that today's the day, that you're gonna buy this thing that you've been

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looking at for a decade. And as a result, you get to make somebody else's

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day. And then you don't feel guilty about it, because I might have spent

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money on myself, which I don't like doing. But in the process,

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that guy got to prove that he's good at his new job. And I'm down

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with that. And now we'll go to Alison,

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who has this week's small talk. We have a small talk

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question from Kevin in Rhode Island. My high school reunion

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is coming up, and I'm already in a spiral about it. Not because

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anything is wrong with my life. By most accounts, it's genuinely fine.

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Good job, Nice apartment, people. I love. When I scroll through what everyone else

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is posting. It all looks so assembled,

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purposeful, like everyone else received a manual. I know

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social media is a highlight reel. I know the manual doesn't exist,

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but the reunion is in person, which means I'll have to answer. So what are

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you up to? About 40 times. And somehow not feel

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like the only one still figuring it out. How did you hold

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your own without either performing contentment or

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catastrophizing? Catastrophizing. That one. So

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there are a couple of questions, and there's a question that you didn't

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actually ask. That is the question I want to address first.

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The response that you didn't ask for is that it is

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possible that everybody in your graduating

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class appears to have their shit together. I can

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guarantee you without hesitation

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that not a single one of them does. I know so

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many highly successful people, incredibly

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successful people, people with great jobs who are Kind,

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compassionate, great families doing their best every

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day, doing really good work every day, who are hot

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messes behind the scenes. And it's

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everybody. There is nobody who has it figured out.

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Nobody has it figured out. There's nothing to figure out.

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There's no roadmap, there's no guidebook, there's no way

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you're supposed to be doing this stuff. Nobody gives you a manual.

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You remember like years and years and years ago when we used to buy big

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screen TVs, they would come with the 500 page manual

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how to operate the television. And then if you go have a kid, they're like,

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here. They give you nothing. You're lucky if you get a pat

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on the back and a pack of diapers. Nobody

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gives you a manual on how to do

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adult life, right? There's no one

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set of anything that means you're successful. Are you

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happy? Are you making progress in

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anything? It could be a freaking video game. Are you making

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progress in a video game? Are you learning things that you

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enjoy learning? Are you living a life that

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you like to live? And if not, are you working toward the better

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version of that life in any way whatsoever?

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Cool. You're doing life and you're doing life

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right. Social media is lies. And I say

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this as a person who posts my whole life on social media

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and everything I say is true. And it's

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still maybe 20% of the story. On a day that I

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am very open and public about things, maybe 20% of the story.

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You cannot judge your success by

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anybody else's. And anybody who

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wants to judge yours by theirs

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can get bent and get

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bent hard. I've never had a high school reunion. I don't think we actually have

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high school reunions. But if you asked me if I wanted to go to my

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high school reunion, I would be like, nah, bro, I'm good. I don't have any

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desire to see people that I haven't seen for 20 years. And I say that

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as the person who's gonna be a more success, not a more successful, but a

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successful person in that room. I am not concerned about walking into that room to

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talk about my job, to talk about my family. There's nothing

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in my life that I'm not happy to share with all those people, except for

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the fact that I don't wanna share shit with all those people. That was 20

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years ago. If I wanted to talk to them, I would talk to

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them. I don't want to. So

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if you want to go to your high school reunion, great, you can go get

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Some probably bad cater waiter

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food and maybe see your old high

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school gym or a ballroom at some

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random Ramada near where your high school was. I don't know. I. I

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don't know how those things work. I've never been to one. The only high school

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reunion I've been to was Romy and Michelle's. That's it. There is nothing you

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have to perform at that place to be accepted by

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people whose opinion has never mattered but certainly hasn't mattered

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in a number of years so large that you would

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celebrate it. They don't have reunions for your

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third year out of high school. You have to get to like 10

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and 20. And guess what? Things that happened 20 years ago aren't

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relevant to your life anymore. You're doing a new thing

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now. My. My suggestion is don't go. Which might not be the right

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suggestion. That might absolutely 100% be the wrong suggestion as

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100% me projecting on you. So don't necessarily take that as

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the solution or the answer. But beyond

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that, there is nothing that you have to prove to

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anybody in that room. There is no finish line. You are

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not in a race that you're losing and nobody is in a race that they're

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winning. If you're worried about showing off to a bunch of people you don't

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care about anymore, you don't even need to go. But if

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you do, or if you want to, just remember

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that you created the glue on post. Its thanks for being here

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guys. Have a good day. Love you. Mean it.

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I got to make two Romy and Michelle's jokes there. Very impressed with myself.

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Different, Not Broken
You’ve spent your whole life feeling like something’s wrong with you. Here’s a radical thought: what if you’re not broken - just different?

Welcome to Different, Not Broken, the no-filter, emotionally intelligent, occasionally sweary podcast that challenges the idea that we all have to fit inside neat little boxes to be acceptable. Hosted by L2 (aka Lauren Howard), this show dives into the real, raw and ridiculous sides of being neurodivergent, introverted, chronically underestimated - and still completely worthy.

Expect deeply honest conversations about identity, neurodivergence, gender, work, grief, anxiety and everything in between.

There’ll be tears, dead dad jokes, side quests, and a whole lot of swearing.

If you are tired of pretending to be someone you’re not, this space is for you.

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